Mr. Ginrai said it best, he spoke of Focus
and "...there's no fun in getting it all overnight.".....
I miss the good ol days when I waited weeks between weeks
to get specimens in the mail. Back then my income was better;
and I enjoyed the look on my housemates' faces as they
watched me pull another package out of the mailbox
("...another robot this week, Tony?") lol
When I didn't have PayPal nor credit cards I used to set
money aside as Money-Orders for whatever I wanted.
Things like that were fun, and I miss it.
As soon as I joined RJ my collection grew within a few months
full of some known items from the '90s and forward, mostly with
Mazinger items because that was what I wanted to focus on.
Or, at least I thought so; when I realized I couldn't have Mazinger-Z
items
without Great Mazinger and Mazinkaiser stuff to elaborate
upon the evolution of the Mazinger robot character... and then, of course,
I felt I haaad to have their "cousin" Grendizer in that mix. lol
I further strayed from focus by grabbing up items of other robot
characters from my childhood memories (Raydeen, and
Johnny Sokko's Giant Robot).
Meanwhile, I watched as other items began to appear in my vision,
such as the Fewter Gigabyte Mazinger bigger-than-jumbos figures.
Man, I'd rampage for one of those! That's one of my grails***
(***hard to get, because of finances and limited knowledge of
the mediums to get one).
I know someday I'll have one... I'm not depressed about not having
a Gigabyte Maz, because I don't think about it. I guess you can
call it "blind patience" -or- I'm easily distracted by all the other
eye-candies I see here at RJ and online, that I don't wake up
everyday screaming to have whatever it is I want.
Throughout my collection growth, I acquired additional items
that are just fillers for shelf space. They too intrigue me;
and even though they're just fillers, they are fillers I might
never see again. At least I'm happy to have them.
And then, there are things I want and would like to have,
but I'd have to make them from scratch or customized from
other toys... lately I don't have the time and the resources
to get those projects going; while others remain unfinished.
That kind of a "grail" is my own self-punishment for being
so lazy and unmotivated. lol
I guess I'll feel depressed someday later in life at a very old age
when I find myself saying "Damn, I shoulda gotten that, or done
that sooner when I had the opportunity".
I may not have the toy of my dreams in my hands, but I'll always
enjoy having the dream in my heart.
zozo-mag